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13 November 2007 @ 07:48 pm
Parents. With their ******* controling-their-kids thingy.  
I HATE THEM. They're always Trying to control me. WHY?!? ALLL the kids have thier computers in their rooms and they can do whatever they ****** wish. 

WHY DO I HAVE TO HAVE MY COMPUTER DOWNSTAIRES, BE ********* CONTROLED BY MY PARENTS ALL THE TIME, AND I CAN'T DO HOW MUCH TIME I ********** WANT??????????????????????? Yesterday was absolutely perfect- I came home and put on the computer. I revised my english petry essay again, I did my maltese article, and finished maths. All before basketball. It was a record. And you know why? Because they didn;t tell me anything about being on the computer all that time. It was heaven. I also had time to go on MNFF a bit and also come a bit here. All between 3:30 and 5:30.

But NO. Today they had to start on me again. To add it all up, I've had a headache all day and I'm a disater. I wish something would happen that would change them. It's a childish wish I know. I know that it's going to be me who has to argue and put up all the effort to gain what I want but...I'm just so fed up. I'M FIFTEEN YEARS OLD FOR HEAVEN'S SAKE!!!!! GIVE ME A BREAK!

I'm so looking foreward to when I get 18. I really wish to get out of here. Malta's very small- it's always the same places. PLUS I'll probably end up living with my parents if I stay here. And if I live with my parents they'll be trying to control me all the time. 

DAMN IT WHY DO THEY DO IT?!!!!!!!!??!?

I'm furious, depressed, angry, mad and what the hell not. I can;t even do my thing here. I'm so frustrated that my eyes are stinging me with tears. I never do my homework really at a decent time when they forbid me to use the computer. I wish they'd understand that. 

Edit: Ok, now I know why. They think I'm immature. And that I don't know how to control myself. The thing is, I'm like soo the opposite. I'M the one who has always done her homework alone (can't say the same for my brother), and I'M not the one who's obsessed with computer and PS2 games (except maybe a BIT the Need For Speed Carbon). Why they thought that I'm immature I can't really get a grip on.
 
 
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Secret Seeker
11 November 2007 @ 03:05 pm
The Tyger  
I have just finished my analizes about 'The Tyger' of William Blake. It is a nice poem, even though Blake put in some religious beliefs of his (he was in fact a minister) which I don't really aggree with. In this poem, he expresses his thoughts about how could have God created such a fearful animal as the Tiger. Blake saw the world in two main parts, innocence and evil. It was the Tiger which represented the latter. He says that it's the perfect killing machine.

However, I fail to see why Blake labells the tiger as evil. The Tiger is an animal, it does not kill for the sake of it but just for mere survival! If any creature should be labelled as evil, the closest would be humans. We can be merderous. And we do kill for the sake of it sometimes. Well, some of us. Killing is not actually my thing.
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Secret Seeker
09 November 2007 @ 10:02 pm
Fighting Against Delusional Minds  
 Darned POEPLE break was a DISASTER today and I so bloody ANGRY with the damned people who just stay PUT without doing ANBYTHING AT ALL expecting that they get passed the ball all the time and others can't take a shot. 



It's NOT a metaphor by the way...



We were playing basketball today during break. I thought I needed a break from homework and did not go to the Library as planned. I just took my ball down to the ground after chemistry and we got into teams. I was playing well. As the caoch always told us and I was also instructing people on the way- I'm kind of a know it all and a bit bossy but not much. Then there were a couple of people who stayed outside the zone doing NOTHING at all. And then they took it against me because I was playing the ball when no one was on me. I also took a couple of lay-ups. 

The drastic difference was that I was FIGHTING for the ball. I was having quite fun actually. A new teacher came to play with us too. He's quite young, maybe 22-24 and even though his basketball skills are going a bit downhill, he has a cute face. lol anyway- A couple of people started saying that I wasn't passing the ball and was playing on my own. I was outraged. They don't even TRAIN. As if they knew everything. When I said this to my best mate (- who also trains and is Captain of our U/15 team) just told me to pass them the ball as we weren't in a REAL game. I just tried to continue playing and pass the ball. But then they didn't pass the ball at all. I just fought for the ball on my own and so on... A couple even stopped playing for a few minutes and made a huge drama of it becuase 'MARTINA IS NOT PASSING THE BALL' 'ALWAYS PLAYING ALONE'. People never used to pass me the ball. LIke EVER. I NEVER EVER EVER stopped playing. I can swear it. Anyway, it continued and finally it really got to me. 

Now usually, I'm a really care-free person, and I NEVER let what other people think affect what I do. I just don't care. But somehow, I ended up crying. YEAH. I hated myself for it. 

I went near the back entrance to our block. A mate luckily got me my bag, seeing that they had axagerated a bit. I skipped inside a window into the corridor (the door is usually locked) just as the bell rang. I slipped inside a toilet cubical just as poeple were starting to fill the corridors.

GAH. People still got to know that I cried though. That's the worst part.

EDIT: I Feel SUCH a BABY. Who would cry for something like that? I mean, OK, they were all grumbling and talking against me and stuff but by crying I showed them that it got to me. I NEVER cried in public, and wasn't planning so. So why did I cry over THAT? 

EDIT: I think it was the Hormones. It must have been.
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08 November 2007 @ 08:13 pm
Darned complicated sentecnes and undecipherable handwrinting.  
Back Again! Not that long since I was here this time. I thought that I should start writing at least once a week/fortnight. At least to practice my English a bit. I'm slacking off essays at school. The thing is, I'm bright(no bragging intended) but I'm a lazy student. I do everything the night before, if not during break. I really need to act a bit more responsibly. That's why today, I finished all my work just as I came back from school. Except Chemistry.

Lol My English teacher is also always at loggerheads with me because I have an untidy handwriting. It's not really that untidy; it's just in italics and sort of all squished. Anyhow, she gad to squint to read my film review, underneath where I mentioned that witty humour is just my thing (which was at the end) she wrote:

" Here's some wry humour for you, since you like it so much...

So, here I am struggling with age (she's only about 40 mind you) snd its effects on eyesight, and there YOU come; with you horrendously hard-to-read handwriting (I think she was exaggerating a bit here. It's not THAT bad. I think.). To rub salt into the wound you:

a) Write in blocks without paragraphing (actually that's not true. I just don't skip two lines when I paragraph. I just go to the next line. Which sort of makes it like a whole block.) 

b) Complicate sentences and lose control sometimes.

Considering you have a good vocabulary, do us BOTH a favour and address these points please and giv yourself a high mark! "

Yeah. I have a problem with complicating sentences. Actually it's partly down for the book I'm reading. It's very nice though. It's called 'Dark Waters'. Anyway, she lent me a book called 'Angela's Ashes', so I can see how to do 'simple but nice'. Has anyone read it?

By the way, I was looking a bit around and saw that there are writing activities and stuff here. The thing is I don't know anyone really, except some from MNFF, who I still really don't know actually. Anyone care to help me a bit getting to know what goes around here?
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03 November 2007 @ 07:23 pm
Looks are Important. We are All Victims of it.  
Hmm. I've noticed that the periods between my posts are being a bit too prolonged. So busy with school and my other stuff that's why. I'm not having any time to dedicate to my WIP fic anymore either. 

I ended up going to the library during breaks to do some work instead of playing basketball with my friends. However, my friend has already sort of started calling me a nerd. I don't really mind when they do this to me because I just do my thing and I don't listen to what other people say avout me. But when they call other people names I hate it. Because it hurts. And some poeple actually listen to it. It's not just with school stuff- even how poeple dress or look. I hate it when people bully other becasue of how they look. When I was 5 they used to bully me and even though I was little, I can remember that it hurt. I wasn't pretty, and I had short extremely-curly hair. There was a girl who used to pinch me and pull my hair, and another boy used to kick me between my legs, teasing me about looking more like a boy.

It's aweful how much the world gives importance to looks. The ironic thing is, we are all victims of it and can't help ourselves. My friend who is fashion and beauty concious was sort of teasing me and calling me a nerd and so on. However, since I got slimmer (I went on permanent diet) she was getting more friendly and defending me from her one of her stuck up friend's offences. I liked it. What could I do?
 
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25 August 2007 @ 11:38 pm
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It's been so long! The last time I posted here I was going to the DH release, which, here, wasn't anything special. Except that there was an OWL and I TOUCHED it. It was so cute, I spent the night pestering my mom an dad to buy me one. Well, until I got the book in my hands. 
 
Anyway, I've been to Ireland since, too. It was so much cooler than here (which right now is very hot). And it's greener than here too. I heard that they call Ireland the green sponge. lol.

Anyway, I loved the mountains there, though they're not as high as the alps.  There was also some pretty nice lakes. One day we went to this lake in a valley, around which there was like a 3 hr walk. And my brother got angry with mom and dad and sort of stormed away. We all thought that he had gone to sit somewhere else. Only we didn't find him. Some pretty frantic 3 hrs later, I was near the car, and I see him walking back idly. I was like -MARK WHERE THE HELL HAVE YOU BEEN????!!!! ---My brother- I just walked it around the lake!

Ok.
Um.
WHAT?

I mean can you believe it????!!! He's eleven (13! He's 13!) years old for heaven's sake!!!!!!!!

But, at least we found him. 

However, then, my parents came with the brilliant idea to go back there again. And walk it together. Only their was a 'minor' drawback of it being a VERY rainy day. And guess what??? I got wet. Yeah. I WAS SOAKED TO THE BONE BY HALF OF IT (!!!) when they noticed that it was too flooded to continue. Soo, we got back to the car. But then they got this other BRILLIANT idea to walk it from the OTHER way. Cool. that was cool. NOT. It was WET.

Anyway, in less than a week I was home again, and I could go on the MNFF again, continue my fics and browse teh forums again. What a relief. Oh, god I rambled a lot. HEH, that's new.

That's all for today.

 
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Secret Seeker
20 July 2007 @ 07:10 pm
OMG!!!  

OMG !!! It's not even 2 whole hours untill the DH release party !!!! OMG it's not even 5 whole hours untill the DH release!!!

Bye! next time I'll come I'll be finished with DH !!! I'm SOOO EXCITED !!!

 
 
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Secret Seeker
20 July 2007 @ 04:10 pm
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My god. I am SOO excited about Deathly Hallows I can't even stay put. The thing is I am making myself overly excited becuse I keep thinking about what is in the book and all the loose ends and about R.a.b. etc. This week, I wasn't able to sleep because of this, even after about two in the morning when I usually go to sleep.

Then I remember that it's the last book. It's a total TRAGEDY. Can you beleive it? I mean, I know that there will be so much more to write about now, but it's the last Harry Potter book that you have to restrain yourself from flipping through the book so you can see how it ends, or from reading any spoilers which you are too impatient to wait for reading yourself.

But there's still the films, and even if we already know the story, it's always something Harry Potterish to look foreward to. Now I'm thinking about it, I'm totally addicted to Harry Potter. Since June, there hasn't been a day (except when I was away) when I didn't go on MNFF.

Anyway, I'm adding some more thoughts to this-so far-  pointless post (ha! I did an alliteraion. lol)

While brainstorming about what could happen in  the seventh book, I couldn't help wondering- Who will die this time?

Personally, I think Harry defeats Voldemort. But she did say that the only way to stop people from forcing her to coninue the series is killing him. I think she said that at least. But anyway, it's true.

But if Harry defeats Voldemort, someone close to him surely dies. I'm positive (well, with how JK kills people (no offence at all) who isn't?). It might be one of the trio, or even Ginny.

Now thinking of it, this is anyways a useless post, because it won't even be 12 till we have the book. *Sigh*
If anyone happens to read before he gets the book please tell me what you think about the question in bold. But please NO DEATHLY HALLOWS SPOILERS! Thank you and bye !
 
 
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06 July 2007 @ 06:46 pm
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Today, it hasn't been so nice. In the morning my mum woke me at SEVEN to clean my room because she was washing the whole house. Besides that, while I was still dressing groggily, my mum made me hurry to go and buy the milk aswell.

At two o'clock I also had a piano lesson, and I had to stay studying there in one of the rooms. All I can say is that I'm fed up of going to piano lessons at a convent. Yeah that's right, I have a nun as a piano teacher. But at least I have a normal teacher for theory. Thank god because I wouldn't put up with more of her. But that's not all! No. When I have to wait for dad to pick me up, the nun at the door is always, 'read this because I can't see' and 'talk a little louder because I can't hear you'. They are just...-so bloody calm !!! (with all due respect; I'm a christian after all) 

And I really hope I won't have anymore lessons at two o'clock because it's really hot at that time - apart that I missed Dragon Ball, which I expect my brother didn't record for me even though I told him a million times (I missed my Vegeta fighting off Goku *sniff*)

Now I've got to go because my 'sweet' little brother is all in tears because he wants to stay on this computer. I'm sooo amused with him. He's crying and he's ELEVEN years old !!!!!!!! Boys are SUCH babies. At least at eleven, they sure are. Oh, no. My brother's 13. Ooops. Oh well...
 
 
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04 July 2007 @ 01:32 pm
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*BANGS HEAD ON TABLE*

I had just did a whole entry, when I hit the back button by mistake. HOW STUPID CAN ONE BE ?!?! I'll just have to type it all then.

Well, this is my first entry, I signed-up on live journal a week or so ago. Blogs remind of a very good story I read on MNFF. It's called The Dark Lord's Blog and I suggest your read it. It's really funny.

Anyway, as I wrote in my Profile, I love the Harry Potter books. Right now I was seing te films and - apart that i got pissed off with the bloody DVD player because it wouldn't work even after 7 times of getting it out and in the player, so I had to use the PS2, which worked- I pitied the people who do not like Harry Potter because of the films. I already pointed this out on the MNFF forum (somewhere), - you just can't compare the films to the books. FULL STOP.

My blog seems just pointless, I know, but there was a girl in my class who went on a rant about how stupid the whole ho thing is, again because she doesn't like the films. I get annoyed every time I remember about it. So piss off and shut your mouth if you think hp is stupid because the films are.
(Didn't want to be harsh there).

So I wanted to ask a question ( please leave a comment !!!!) 

Do you think that many people think that hp is stupid and they haven't even read the books?

 
 
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